Muhammad Abdi Fadhillah

Last Update May 5, 2025

Who's Abdi?

Hey there!

I'm Muhammad Abdi Fadhillah, but please just call me Abdi.

I study physics engineering at Institut Teknologi Sumatera in Indonesia.

Since I was young, I've been captivated by the equations and principles that govern our understanding of space, time, and reality. That fascination with the fundamental nature of things has only grown stronger with time.

Born and raised in Indonesia, I see the world through patterns and connections that might not be immediately obvious to others. I'm deeply interested in machine consciousness and intelligence. I approach these not just as academic concepts, but as engineering challenges that I believe can someday be solved.

I'll be honest, I'm someone who tends to think big, sometimes at the expense of practical execution.

I've started ambitious projects like Abdi & Brothers Company and Seraphim, diving into ideas around AI and system design with tremendous enthusiasm. Then I've faced very real limitations that forced me to pause or pivot. I've created MIKE-AI as a thinking partner, but struggled to scale it beyond my local machine when faced with resource constraints.

Part of this comes from my natural tendency toward philosophical thinking.

I love exploring theoretical concepts like quantum mechanics, consciousness, and multi-dimensional physics. I sometimes get lost in these abstractions rather than focusing on the concrete steps needed to build functioning systems. My writing often reflects this tendency. It becomes verbose and abstract when clarity would be more valuable.

I recognize the pattern in my journey: intense bursts of inspiration followed by challenges with sustained execution. My career has included brief explorations across different domains rather than deep expertise in one area. I've also learned that while i have an average GPA and scattered certifications have given me breadth of knowledge, I still need to develop true technical depth.

What drives this approach?

I think it's partly my insatiable curiosity. That same quality that had me dismantling things as a child now has me jumping between fascinating concepts as an adult.

I think it's also about my environment.

Working alone from my bedroom creates both freedom and limitations. Without the structure of a team or the resources of a tech hub, I've had to chart my own course. I sometimes overestimate what's possible with the resources at hand.

Moving forward, I'm focusing on several key improvements:

Developing true depth in specific technical areas rather than surface knowledge across many
Completing projects through to measurable outcomes rather than abandoning them when challenges arise
Building more practical engineering discipline around documentation, testing, and resource planning
Balancing my philosophical interests with concrete implementation skills
Developing a more sustainable work approach rather than relying on caffeine-fueled coding sessions

These days I tend to see reality through a quantum lens, where possibilities exist in multiple states simultaneously until our choices collapse them into a single reality. But I'm learning that successful engineering requires not just envisioning possibilities.

It demands methodically building pathways to make them real.

I've been called both visionary and delusional.

Sometimes these contradictory labels come for the exact same ideas.

The truth probably lies somewhere in between. In my opinion I have genuine insights and creative approaches.

That's why I need to pair these with better execution and professional discipline.

Through it all, I remain someone driven by authentic curiosity and a desire to contribute something meaningful. I'm just trying to understand and build something that matters.

I'm growing more aware of the gap between my aspirations and my current capabilities.

I believe this kind of awareness is the first step toward bridging that gap.

What Abdi aspire to be:

Beyond my technical ambitions, what truly matters to me runs deeper than any code I'll write or system I'll build.

I aspire to be remembered first as a son who made his parents proud. Taking care of my family isn't just a responsibility. It's a privilege that shapes my decisions every day. I want to be the kind of friend people can count on in both celebration and difficulty. Someone who listens without judgment and offers support without condition. The connections we form with others often matter more than the systems we create.

Looking ahead, I hope to someday be a father who guides with patience and understanding. I believe the greatest legacy we leave isn't in our professional accomplishments but in how we nurture the next generation.

I strive to be a good citizen who contributes meaningfully to my community and country. Indonesia has given me so much. I want to give back by creating opportunities and solving problems that matter here.

Professionally, I'm working to bridge the gap between my aspirations and capabilities. I want to develop true depth in understanding consciousness and intelligence, not just as theoretical concepts but as engineering challenges. I'm learning to balance my philosophical thinking with practical execution, focusing on completing projects with measurable outcomes rather than just starting them with enthusiasm.

The path forward isn't about abandoning big dreams. It's about building the discipline, skills, and connections needed to make them real. One methodical step at a time.

Abdi's Research & Work:

Right now, my research and projects covers a few areas. more update you could see in here

Who's Abdi beyond work?

When I step away from research and building, I find myself drawn to quiet moments of reflection. Late night and rainfall has become my favorite thinking environment. The steady rhythm creates a peaceful space where my mind can wander and connect dots that stay hidden during busy hours.

My best insights often arrive not during frantic productivity but in these calm moments of simply being.

I've always had an active imagination.

As a kid, I would create entire adventures after seeing something that sparked my interest. A dinosaur game at an arcade would transform into elaborate scenarios played out in my bedroom. I even learned to control my dreams, counting to ten before sleep to enter worlds of my own creation.

This imaginative capacity still serves me today, though I'm learning to balance it with practical follow-through.

Family forms the foundation of who I am. My parents have supported my education and dreams even when they didn't understand them. Friendships matters to me, though I haven't always nurtured them as I should. The isolated nature of my work sometimes pulls me away from social connections. I'm working to be more present with friends, to listen more than I speak, and to show up consistently rather than only when it's convenient.

I find myself drawn to books that expand my understanding of human nature. Psychology, philosophy, and history help me contextualizing my own experience within the broader human story. I'm particularly fascinated by how people navigate transitions and uncertainty. These insights help me make sense of my own journey with its unexpected turns.

Balance remains my greatest personal challenge. I tend toward extremes. Deep work sessions that last until dawn. Philosophical explorations that neglect practical realities. Ambitious goals without corresponding structure. I'm learning that sustainable growth requires rhythm rather than bursts. Sleep matters. Regular meals matter. Consistent habits matter.

Connect with Abdi

I believe real connection comes from being authentic rather than presenting some carefully curated version of yourself. If something in my work or perspective clicks with you, let's connect!

You can reach me through here. Whether you're researching similar topics, just curious about my work, or have completely different perspectives, I value exchanging ideas and finding unexpected connections through open conversation.

I've found that the most meaningful connections often start with shared questions rather than shared answers. If you're exploring similar territories from physics to consciousness to the future of how humans and machines might work together, or if you simply have questions about my journey, please reach out.

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